Disease

Have you ever been so completely sick that you feel you are entirely a disease, an anomaly? Your head throbs with pain, and so does the back of your neck. Your knee feels like it is the abode of living scorpions that are waiting to be released in either direction, eating up the flesh of your leg. The acids in your stomach surge with wretched vengeance and your eyes are moist, blurred and fatigued. There is infinte exhaustion in your limbs - you try to stand up and your legs tremble crushing all hope and the desire for hope.
There is dullness, a debilitating delirium in your mind, a loathing for all that is human. You look at the mosaic on the floor through your tired eyes and you can see the small patterns crawling, bumping into each other like the millions of men and women on earth. Oh! How you despise the human body - the grime, the rotting flesh, the scars, the pus, the offal and sickness! How you despise the human soul - the miserable sorrow, the restlessness, the wickedness, the treachery and deceit!
You look at the light streaming in from the ventilator into your bleak room. You raise your hands to reach the light, to see if the light is real or is it an illusion born out of darkness. The light pierces your eyes and yet the light is beyond your reach. The light is the contemptuous laugh of life.

Book tags

Meera - this is for you! :)

Last book I bought:-
The short stories of Anton Chekhov
compiled by Robert Linscott

Last book I read:-
The Trial by Franz Kafka

Currently reading:-
1. The Short stories of Anton Chekov
2. Uncommon Wisdom: Conversations with Remarkable People by Fritjof Capra
3. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
4. Discrete Mathematics with Algorithms by Albertson, Hutchinson
5. Bluetooth Demystified by Nathan J. Muller
6. Computer Networks: A Systems approach by Peterson, Davie

Books that have had an impact on me:-
- Of Human Bondage by Somerset Maugham
- Siddhartha by Herman Hesse
- The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
- Jonathan Livingstone Seagull by Richard Bach
- Commentaries on Living by Jiddu Krishnamurthy
- The Complete Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle
- The Adventures of The Wishing Chair by Enid Blyton
______( the last two hooked me onto reading! ) ________

Total books I own:-
Lots - thanks to my GrandDad, Dad, Mom & me; the number is probably 600-800.

Some classics, fairy tales, some contemporary (pulp) fiction, prose anthologies, a medley of authors, children's books; Hindu philosophical & religious texts, Jiddu Krishnamurthy, Ayn Rand, a few Western philosophers, Osho, contemporary in-vogue gurus :) ;
Mathematics, General Science, Health, Comics, miscellaneous - biographies, history, geography, puzzles, arts & craft; and text books on Computer Science, Biology and Architecture.